| this is what always happens
story of my life
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| we figured some things out
not optimal, but pretty good for the moment.
less emotional (which is always good) much more rational
sometimes you just have to get all the emotional garbage out of your system so you can step back and see how crazy you made yourself with emotions.
things may not be perfect, but they are what they are and they are better than some of the other shit i've had to deal with, so i'm keeping upbeat about it.
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| i swear if i wasn't able to go to my basic foods class tonight and cook i think i might have fallen apart.
not only are the people in the class great, but just cooking takes my mind off of all the bad shit going on in my head
i swear he drives me up the wall with worry sometimes...
hopefully we figure it all out. and soon.
i want everything to be back in place. i am not one hundred percent good with change. depending on the change. i managed to put everything in my mind back in place in the event of the worst happening. now lets cross our fingers that it doesn't!
i can't do this much longer... i was so off my game today. my head drifted to so many places at such inconvenient times. its so easy to get lost in your own town when your head is like that!
i know that its bad to read depressing books when your head is all funny like this but it really puts me in the mood for catcher in the rye (my favorite book probably of any ever! and i read a lot) so i think i'll go to bed and try to let this headache go away, along with the weird feelings from this day, and sink into someone else's depression. |
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| very frustrated at the moment.
grrrrrr
thats all i can really say
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| a very interesting wednesday....
so i decided to be more aggressive... and it payed off... all day long...
teehee
i'm giddy (could you tell?)
so yea from the minute that wednesday started it's been extremely out of the ordinary but in a random what the hell just happened is this really happening kinda way.
needless to say, i'm glad about the overall outcome of the day.
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